been there!

arini ada budak baru masuk our team.
new graphic designer.
as budak baru ni pompuan so i pandang sebelah mata jerh. hahaha.
buhsan. byk sgt pompuan kat opis kot.

tak tau dier ni ok ker tak coz still early to say.
but muka dier agak tuer padahal umur baru 23.
lisa da start nk membuli new staff...so kunun2 taknak friendly sgt ngn budak tuh on first day..
end up aku tgok byk plak dier ckp ngn budak tuh.
huhu. aku nyampuk2 la part2 maner yg patut.

pastuh actually ada 1 project opis ku yg skg ni art director aku tgh hold.
aku ngn bos laki aku ni skerk men tai-chi.
aku tolak kjr kat dier-dier tolak balik kat aku. :)

contoh: dier suh aku cari gambar telefon version corporate utk replace kat header website yg aku dah wut.
tp lepas aku carik2 tak jumper mcm yg dier nk.
so aku pon reply ler email yg lebey kurg cmnih: "i couldn't find the telephone image like how u want. can give me any referral image?" = bley tak tolong carikkan gambar tepon yg u maksudkan coz i malas nk mencarik. agagaga.
so td akhirnyerh dier kasik la feedback website yg aku da buat. n dier reply lebey kurang ginihla;
"no need to worry about the telephone image. i already asked the new person to find the picture for you"

wah2. tros ler aku hepi mengkhabarkan brita itu pada lisa. sajerh jeleskan dier.
told her yg aku takya susah2 nk buli da new ppl coz the boss already bully her on my behalf.
sbg designer..rasanyerh paham kebencian mencarik n memilih gambar yg suitable utk website/etc.
dulu sentiasa wish kan best ada budak junior bleyh suh tolong carikkan gamba.
tp dulu wish tak come true coz im the junior among them. tp dorg tak berani buli i sgt sbb saya tegas. haha. tp tak sempat saper buli sesaper pon.
coz as designers we helped each other. maner bley berkira.
satu team. hehe.
cuma ni budak baru. macam syok sajerh buli awal2 ni jap.
plus budak lim kok wing. lg ler i skerk membuli.
mmu vs lim kok wing.

itu sajerh update today.

bebelan opis. siler abaikan takya baca pon taper.

today akhirnyerh sempat spend quite quality time with him after raya.
means have a 'distress talk' and at the same time bought tickets to watch dot dot dot. rahsier.
nti da nk dekat tarikh i btau. ceh. sejak biler sianggerik ada rahsier.

so today we ate at new york restaurant aper ntah nama dier kat OU.
nice and very sinful food i must said. and now i look like a pregnant lady n im not kidding bout it kie. ugly.
kadang2 biler takder topic utk berbicara..bley ker takder idea nk talk ngn dier? tipu jerh.
biler tgh buhsan ckp topic2 heavy or stress stuffs...aku akan tanyerh dier...
so aper latest post at si anggerik?
he's quite good i must said...he read my blog quite frequent.

jap eh aper point aku td.
ohs korang terasa tak tahun nih da nk dekat abes dah.
bulan 10 dah. aih. cepat sungguh.
well...

pastuh kjr kat opis sgt melambak...
sampai satu tahap aku rasa nak menjerit jerh...
again aku tekankan aku skerk kjr2 aku.
yg aku penat nak layan adalah karenah2 manusia durjana.
aku rasa baki kesabaran aku sikit jerh lagi yg aku simpan utk tahun nih.
n aku bersyukur mempunyai rakan2 baik d opis yg aku bley bergelak ketawa...ketuk2 kepala and tempat jerit2 kalo mempunyai perasaan yg sungguh annoying.
kadang2 kalo tak tahan we just drag each other masuk ke bilik stor. ahahaha. yer mmg buruk perangai.
eeh pompuan ngn pompuan. jgn pk bebukans.

benda2 nih aku tak cter sgt kat alip n if u notice aku da tak cter detail in this blog...
coz usually bila aku balik aku dah off otak aku tros dari hal2 opis.
kadang2 adalah membebel kat housemate kalo dier ada at umah. sian.
n sbb aku membebel kat cni arinih sbb aku ada homework nk buat n nak taknak aku knr buat gak.
i dun mind doing my freelance stuffs overnight or during weekends but i hate it when i have to bring back office works...
nak buat cmner...hari aku amek cuti..partner training aku kjr..
time dier cuti..aku kjr..
so nak taknak both of us knr buat kjr dari rumah sampai opis discuss n rabu knr submit dah.

plus dari mode raya switch to mode bz d opis sampai aku terluper harini ari jumaat pastuh aku pakai baju agak formal n pelik gilerh y everyone so casual today...
pastuh aku tros bengong n apa2 korang msg arini esok mungkin aku da lper dah.
pastuh....

err...
i think i tercomplaint panjang gilerh.
sok i nak g beraya2.
bye.
have a great weekend ppl.

young n restless. kununnyerh.

smlm isra' mikraj n today knr plak berdepan dengan future.
echeh. arini ari mid year KPI gue.
it's not bad or gud. enuff said.
y?

me vs devil
sumtimes even when u did ur job well...ppl just want to point at ur weakness.
(time nih issue tak datang hari tandatangan menjadi issue yg hangat. part aku siap smerk projects on time cepat jerh skip cepat2. sial.)
sbb he knows this is his last chance to be in the room with me.
after this i wont do his projects anymore.
tuhan lebih tahu. mungkin berkat kesabaran..akhirnyerh doa aku dimakbulkan jugerh.
bye big ass boss.
as next month i wont reporting under him anymore.

me vs angel
i cant really say she's an angel or wut.
it's juz dat it's a relief she's there to say all the nice words.
n thx for this;
"how old are u rai?"
"25 this year..."
"wut?? u r just 25?"
(muka aku tuer ker? dis is da first time ppl think im older than my age)
"err.yaps."
"blablabla u r still young and u r talented. n u really have a lot of potentials. blablabla"

okei. thx ms. angel. it's such a nice words and it makes me feel better. at least sumone appreciate wut i did here.

kesimpulan
when u r in a big office...u shud have this kind of attitude; "terer bodek" all the ppl.
i dun have dat skill at all. if im comfortable with the ppl, automatically ill be friendly enuff.
da prob is being designers u dun have time to go around and chit chat bersama azwan with all da ppl in da office.
all i can say is...it's not easy especially when dealing with all da ppl who have different background...

nway...
kerja apa yang senang kan. haha.
i take it as apart of life.
smthg dat i shud live with. deal with. either i like it or not.
i guess i shud puasa more.
as i find out i managed to control my emotions better when im fasting.

n thx to today as balik kjr td tros jerh decide bli tiket bas g balik batu pahat weekend ni as wan takmo teman balik. huhu. so mak, buatla pulut kuning. huhu. saya mahu pulang~

today is friday aka flyday~

i dunno wut it means but who doesn't love friday??
hugs friday~

*please ignore my BIGGG drumstic in dis pic..:p

as it's friday so as usual im wearing jeans and tshirt and my flat.
n yes in this office, we aka designers have been tortured to sit on the HIGH chair like baby chair.
pity us. sobs...
they said it's gud for our posture....
but as u can see the way i sit...
i dun think i sit in the right posture...right?
even my foot cannot touch the bottom pedal. is it called pedal? haha.

so usually my colleagues and i will stand up while doing our works as we are not comfortable sit so long on the chair. the gud thg about it is it burns our calories but herms it's slowly killing torture our body.
if u guys notice on my twitter for yesterday; i am so sleepy and i almost fall asleep while standing like dis. haha can u imagine? tersengguk2 a few times. mebi sbb poser.

i tried to cook telur bungkus just now for dinner but my telur bungkus tak berapa jadikla. fail biler bab membungkus. tak cukup lebar. agagaga. i think becoz telur letak 2 bijik jerh kot. shud put 3. then okla rasa dier. alifa kata sedap tp aku rasa garam tak capai standard piawaian gue. pastuh next time kena letak lada merah la. tak kick btol tak pedas sgt. caiyurk. percubaan masak telur bungkus yg gagal. haha. last2 selamber aku letak telur tuh atas daging cincang ku cmtuh. aku sorg jerh makan. takper....

~~tomoro im gonna watch ice age 3~~harap2 best.

BIG GAL dun cry. BIG GAL just run away.

yes arini memang enak dengar leteran dari 2 bosses.
tak la leter cmner tp taula bos2 kan terer bab2 saiko orang.
reason being sbb aku tak datang 'event tandatangan dinding ofis yg baru'.
opis aku kan baru renovate arituh. mmg cun la.
aku skip yg 1st arituh sbb adik aku convo.
yg 2nd ni dorg bagitau last minute n aku ada interbiuu la weyy mana bley nk dtg.
agagagaga.
so papagi bos besar yg rasanyerh 1 taun lamanyerh tak communicate ngn aku tiber2 pagi td bagi statement 'im so dissapointed dat u coudnt make it yesterday'.
maka alasan 'sakit perot' pon kuarla.
padahal mmg terluper + kebetolan ada interbiu.
berani mati btol aku.
bos team aku pon tak remind plak kan.
chantek.
sejak biler plak takder tandatangan aku kat ctu opis ni lingkup ker?

then lalala aku continue buat kjr n susun2 file smerk 2nd boss dtg plak ckp nk 'talk2'.
aiseh. adakah issue tak dpt tandatangan dinding opis baru masih lagi di-drag hingga ke petang??
okie layan. so there..yes mukadimah tentang issue tandatangan dinding semalam and aku confident kasik la alasan sakit perot n jujur ku explain yg aku lupa tentang bender tuh pon.
tak kuar dalam calendar aku nyerh pop-up.
(saper suh HR budud tak block calendar kami?)
lagipon selepas office hour. kamon.
baru sekali dua aku skip event opis ok.
i never fail to attend any stupid events b4 pon.
even knr berlakon nyanyi lompat2 cm katak smerk n jadi red indian aku join. takdak hal.
takkan la aku tak dtg hari tandatangan dinding pon nk byk bunyi.

ok pastuh 2nd boss pon tau bender tuh agak childish utk di-drag kan so dier tak make it too long.
it's more about my workloads there yg di-disscusskan.
dier tau yg aku da goyah kat ctu.
i mean dier TAUUU yg aku mmg still complete all my daily routines tp dier tau aku tgh rebel kat dalam.
n still ada hati plak tanyerh aku nk jd DBKL Multimedia designer tak kat ctu?
kamon la. ingt aku stupid ker.
takder nyerh aku nk do 2 thgs lagih. boleh tuh bley. double up my salary la.
tp takla aku jawab gituh. aku ckp la leklok my reasons. n dier phms la naper.
giler nk saving taknak hire other graphic designer tp bley plak nk hire all manager levels.

susah tol bila ada boss yg bagus.
aku admit 2nd boss aku ni mmg hebat.
terer bab manage ppl.
n i noe no matter where i will go after dis i wont be able to find better boss than her.
she is so damn gud.
lembut tp tegas.
n ayat2 saiko yg bley buat ko rasa guilty.
aku syg sgt kat dier.
sayang team aku.
tp keadaan makin berubah.
n aku pon tak bley teros dlm graf malar forever.
kan.

tak sabar nk cter kat lisa on monday.
yg best bos team aku dtg kat aku masa nk balik td.
"i heard 'bout it."
"it's ok. i noe u r a big gal. n actually for me it's a small thg. but u pandai2 la after dis if ada dis kind of event lagi. it's my fault too not to remind you about it."
aku hanya mampu tersenyum.
at least ayat dier lebey sedap sket kat otak aku.
ada bos laki cmnih kan senang!
even tho dier sbnrnyerh separuh lelaki.
hahahaha.
wut a day.

apapon thx pada smerk yg sudi dgr tentang 'drama' hari ini.
huhu. n korg yg sanggup baca smpai abes.

LESSON: nk rebel bley tp jgn tak dtg hari tandatangan dinding opis okeiiiii.


agree ngn kak mai n kebetulan lagu ala2 *rebel ni sesuai dengan entry today

kacang pagoda

y la i eat this kacang so frequent lately????? aisehhhh

a) stress ngn workloads
b) a sign of ageing
c) so dat can stay up longer
d) sajerh. sangap.

i think is more to b. haha. bcoz my dad love to eat dis kacang when he drive for a long journey. the different is i dun eat it when i drive.

haha im getting older.

nway skerk ar lagu mawi feat KRU tuh = sujud. rasa lagu tuh sedap. see. tak rasa malu pon admit skerk lagu mawi n KRU. eh naper knr bold perkataan lagu lelebey? ekekeke.

Bila dilanda musibah
Hati tabah mula rebah
Jangan biarkan dugaan
Rapuhkan pedoman hidup

Andai waktu itu tiba
Semaikan sifat bersabar
Hanya Dia saja menentu
Dan kita hanya mampu sujud......


p/s : saper fenin dengar lagu 'liyana jasmay - aku tak percaya cinta'?

lagu nih tahap nk nyumpah jerh dgr lelebey lg kalo tgh drive. mcm cptla abes. eh naper tak abes2 lagi lagu nihhhhh. jd saiko sat pas dgr lagu nih.

the saturday

today...

we had lunch at the apartment, the curve.

of course we expect perfection for our stomach...

unfortunately, we felt so disappointed with the services + food.

:(
dahla waiters muka macam kaki2 pukul.

n da balance of my day spent in here.
reading the tutorials...
reading n reading....
n reading n reading n reading.....
experimenting.
hope it worth every second it takes...

"Live as if your were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever." - Gandhi

now im so in ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzz mode.

web designer vs secretary

...........
is dis da max?????
sure nottttt????????
???????????????????

wuhuu. not bad~
too bad.
im not qualified.

....herms
but i cant teach ppl...

sempat lagihhh takk aku tukar bidang????
agagagagaga
anyone nk hire aku jd secretary x???


*you can check for other jobs salary range in here.

ganbatte kadasai Si Anggerik~

p/s: entry ini untuk men-motivate diri sendiri sbnrnyerh.

merencana kerjaya agak susah sbnrnyerh...
bila lagi da larut dlm profession tuh n dah dlm comfort zone, have friends to gossip wif, selesa ngn tools, ditambah pula bos nk belikan tools yg baru, kerusi tinggi n ruang ofis yg makin besar.....
make me think...
wuts next?

aku da buhsan sgt2 sbnrnyerh..
ngn kerja2 kat ofis...
aku takleh tunggu lagi dah..
samada aku perlu tarik diri sekarang or..
talk to my boss..to change department...

if aku change department skg...
i cant play my dirty trick in da office anymore...
wuts my tricks?
ahaaa...
(wont reveal it now. bukan curik tulang yg pasti)

n aku perlu buat keputusan segera b4 bulan 8 as da new art n design manager dah nk masuk...
n to continue wif my current department is hard as everythg is nowhere...
i have a great vision where i can see thgs are going nowhere..
ok tipu jerh..
im in marketing department..
so of course i noe every lil probs here n there...

to resign n doing my own things is definitely impossible as thgs are still new, dun have many clients yet n everythg are still in small pieces...tp aku percaya dengan rezeki di tangan tuhan..we hav plans for our baby..cuma mungkin take times to see it grows..n maybe take years to see it really grows and known by people. Pokok durian tak tumbuh sehari. Even Saiful Nang start by hard.

there's only 3 things dat keeps me motivate to work:-
1) salary
2) healthy environment (great boss n colleagues)
3) job satisfaction (able to develop my career)

my next 5 years goal is to be a brand/creative consultant.
so i need a gud platform to develop my career.
our business is just 1 thg.
I need to work with a few companies more to really make my portfolio really strong..

ok....
so many thgs to do...
so many thgs to think...
i really need to reconstruct my career now!

*mak siler jgn risau. decision masih di fasa awal.*

Oh Lelaki~

Aku Pantang....

Lelaki yg gatal.
Lelaki yang dah berkahwin suka buat lawak lucah.
Lelaki yang bau badan dier busuk.
Lelaki yg suka tgok pompuan from up to toe n tgok macam nk makan ko.

*Ya Allah ya Tuhanku semoga bakal suamiku nanti dijauhkan dari perangai2 ini.

Arituh aku tryla gak tgok Alip dier terpengaruh tak dengan pompuan2 cantik.
Ada 3 orang dlm lift time tuh. Ada aku, alip n seorang pompuan yg sgt hot.
Perempuan tuh cantik n perfume dier wangi 1 lift.
Aku try tgok Alip usha tak pompuan tuh.

Result: Lulus dengan cemerlang nyerh. Aku tgok Alip beser jerh.

Actually aku kesian dekat Lelaki yang dah berkahwin tapi mempunyai perangai yang gatal.
I mean tak kesian ke kat isteri kat umah b4 start pandang perempuan lain up to toe + menggedik2 + blom lagi masuk part2 mengusha perempuan kan.
N then ini dari apa yg aku dgr la. apa yg dorg share kat aku.
Some mens didnt share probs with their wife.
Means tak share about office works or any probs kat tmpt kjr pon ngn wife.
Why eh?

Aku tak paham sebab i can talk or share almost about everythg with Alip.
He may not the best advisor or great prob solver, but he's a gud listener.
n lagi aku pelik kalau wife dier tak masak pastuh dier plak tak share cter2 opis ngn bini dier.
Apa yg dorg have in common please?
n tak pelikla sbb lack of communication nih la yg menyebabkan kurang nyerh bonding n menyebabkan laki mencari yg lens....KOT.
aku lom kawin so takleh nk lebih2 bagi point aku karang knr laser ngn bini2 orang kang. haha.

Kelakar la.
So to single ladies out there, u guys still have time to choose dengan bijak nyerh.
Mungkin la makin susah sekarang nk cari option yang banyak as umur pon makin meningkat n potential nk jumper lelaki berstatus single n available mmg payah.
Nak jumper yg sekepala lagi susah.
Nasib la mak abah tak pernah pesan "jangan cari bf kat U" kalau tak sure aku pon pening paler sbb bila g tmpt kjr aku rasa lelaki single yg tinggal perangai sure pelik smcm.

Okla takleh nk cakap byk2 pasal issue ni sbb sgt sensitip plus aku lom kawin.
Apatah lagi status hanya la 'single but not available'.

Perempuan2 Hot pilihan Si Anggerik:-

Contoh 1

Contoh 2

*kalau contoh cam kedua2 nih, hah aku pon leh tertgok up to toe.

Simple Tips to single ladies:

• Jangan putus semangat.
  
• Cari kelebihan diri n tonjolkan.
  
• Mulakan dengan pakaian yg up to date, makeup yg natural tp dapat naikkan seri muka.
• Jangan jalan membongkok.
  
• Bila bercakap knr ada eye-contact.
  
• Tak perlu lemah lembut sgt janji suara tuh jelas n mampu memberi respond yg memberansangkan.
  
• Tak perlu bijak sangat janji funny. haha.
  
• Tegas tuh penting. Kena tegas dengan prinsip diri. So that mens/partner will respect u more. Trust me.
  
• Jangan takot mulakan langkah pertama. tp jangan terlalu direct. Lelaki suka bender yg mencabar.
• Dengki mendengki pon satu taktik kotor yg selalu nyerh berjaya. akakaka.
• Senyum selalu. Tp bukan kerang busuk.

P/s: td bos pmpuan balik dari business trip dier yg hampir sebulan pastuh dier hug aku. rasa terharu lak. n rasa cm peluk mak2. haha. bos pompuan aku seorang yg sgt motherly. Ala2 Tiara tuh. Tegas tp sgt penyayang. Sgt hardworking. Sgt berhemah. Pastuh nasib la pagi td instinct aku nk bersiap awal sket. So aku smpai opis 5 minit awal b4 8.30. Kalo tak kantoi yg spanjang dier g business trip aku smpai opis 8.45 jerh manjang. agagaga. Pastuh dier belikan coklat. Aku tertelan dgn confidentnyerh. Kalau TER and YAKIN ok kan? huhuhuhu.

Yey.

Creative Consultant: Rai, u've got new task for dis week. u noe rite?

Me: dunno. (smbil senyum2 kambing buat2 tatau)

Creative Consultant: It's start with a letter C.

Me: huhu. ok. corporate website.

Revamp the corporate website again.
but dis time revamp by me.
I am so excited n cant wait to start to do it.
as b4 dis the website did by the other designer..
n now is my turn..
others may complain but i take it as a gud opportunity...
bcoz later on i will need to deal with the new brand consultant...
the brand consultant has experiences worked with MAS Airline b4..
Thats wut they said.
n at the same time he's a brand consultant at the same place as Yasmin Ahmad work now.
so i feel dat's gonna b a gud experience to work with dis ppl.
i want to know the thinking behind it n the whole process...
It is called Corporate ID.
n it's my first experiece as this time they want to rebranding the whole thg.
So i'm in charge with the website.

So dis evening, I already start doing my research on the corporate website..
n i start to list everythg and put them into categories....
the prob is i do it in 'Text Edit'
n i didnt save it..
it's my BADDDD habit.
do everythg at the last minute..

suddenly 'POP'.
takder letrik seluruh kawasan opis aku.
sigh~
and it's 4.45pm.
lalalalala..stress pon ada...
pastuh dapat green light balik kol 5.10.

takperla..sok masih ada.
so esok lusa da takder dah 'LALALALA' mode aku.
bos pon da balek..siap belikan 'key-chain' lagi.
pastuh cm malu2 kucing nk pass kat aku.
aku pon kurang paham naper nk malu2.
keychain jerh kot.
huhu.. but it was nice for him to buy me smthg from his trip.

nway today jugerh i discover that our website was listed in 6 CSS galleries already.

Read more here.
So heppi.

pegang anjing tuh haram, faham?

..yerla kalau kering tuh aku taulah bley.

Annoying 1
"kenapa u'all takleh pegang anjing eh?" tanyer wanita berusia 32 TAHUN.

dlm pendidikan moral darjah 1 sampai tingkatan 5 cikgu tak ajar ker? apsal aku tak pernah tanyerh indians yg naper korg takleh makan lembu? grrr

Annoying 2
"i think it's much more convince for all the cosmetics products like syampoo and body shower to have the 'halal' logo. correct, rai?" tanyer lelaki berusia 33 TAHUN.

bukan bender2 internal jerh ker patot ada cop halal tuh contoh nyer ubat gigi, or supplement means bender2 yg masuk mulut. arghhh. aku dahla hampir luper bekalan ilmu dari sekolah agama dulu. salah kasik info mampos aku.

Annoying 3
"...."
okla jen is forever annoying when it comes to work with her. any dialogues from her are annoying.


dahla. aku nk g makan!

for wuteva

mula2 td masa dalam keter odw balek umah after work rasa nk marah2 n rasa cm da tau jerh apa aku nk tulis kat blog ni mlm ni...
tp biler da smpai umh...da makan...da rilex sket...da smyg..
tros hilang perasaan marah tuh ntah ke mana.

at the end i just think like this..
y must waste my anger at somethg like dat.
it's just work.
n kjr bawah orang mcm tuh la.
wut u expect, rai?

smile. smile. smile.
tipuh ar.ko da bebel2 kat alip td kat tepon mmg lah anger ko tuh da ilang.
ekeke.
pity him.

ok. no time to be angry or sad or any frustration.
take or leave the job.
sooon!
but aku akan tinggalkan dengan nama ku yang wangi.

aku mahu dorg sebut cmni...
"herms..i miss to work with her"
"herms..i miss her design style"
"i miss her ideas"

perasan. perasan dan terus perasan.
jgn risau aku takkan resign tanpa backup job.
hidup knr bijak dan kesabaran kena tinggi.
skill multitasking tuh penting.

bila sampai masa boleh tuai all the rewards.

.dah g continue buat kjr smbil focus dgn segala plan yg ada.

sedikit kejadian d opis

lalalala. smerk orang dpt surat increament di meja masing2.
tp aku dan Hollahop (bukan nama sebenar) dipanggil masuk ke bilik.
bukan kenaikan pangkat. huhu.
Hollahop dipanggil masuk ke pantry jer.
so pas turn dier aku la kan.
aku dipanggil masuk ke bilik bini bos besar.
aperkah??
owhs mungkin bos gue dpt baca ketegangan di minda ku dis few weeks.

bini bos besar takder.
so bilik dier kosong.
so much more private la to discuss any issue.
just to b clear aku ada 2 bos.
1 bos team ku 1 lagi bos department gue.
so biler dier pass surat tuh aku bukak n cuber la senyum dgn penuh ikhlas ---->
tak ckup ikhlas ke? hahaha.

sbb da amount of the increament is below of my expectation.
so both said smbil gelak2 disappointed "is dat all ur expression?"
dgn jujur aku menjawab; "huhuhu. i dunno how else shud i express it"
(susah ok pura2 heppi tp sbnrnyer tak heppi kan. apertah lagi menahan tangisan di dalam hati)
so both duduk mengadap aku.
so i noe dis gonna be long.
they tried to dig from me.
how i feel.

me: ohs im ok with it. (tipooo2) ok. actually im not so happy with it becoz it's below of my expectation. (setelah berjaya dipsyco mengeluarkan kenyataan ikhlas dari hati)

them: im sorry if u r dissappointed. actually bcoz of last year u r attached to the GTP (Graduan Training Program) thats y ur performance been reviewed for 3x with quite an ammount of increaments. Wut happen here is after the program u will b treated as the ordinary staff here with the normal system.

me: (wuteva. gud try buy i can never buy it)

them: blablabla we r so happy with ur performance last year blablabla.....but dun wori. we really appreciate ur efforts for all this while and u will be surprise with the bonus. how much u will get, i can't tell u yet, but u will be happy with it.

me: ok. (yerlaaaaa tuh. aku 'mmg tak tau' la kan baper byk bonus aku akan dpt. da tentu la aku ada informer tetap!)

mula2 bengang yg amat tp after talk with the informer, rupernyerh informer menipu aku. agaga. so takderla emo sgt balek. kesimpulannyerh statement 'u will be surprise with the bonus' tuh agak btolla jugak. takla byk tp better la dari as first has been told by the informer. informer tak gner. huhuhu. so skg leh letak icon senyuman ikhlas biasa2.----->


kesimpulan: bersyukurla dengan apa yg ada. alhamdulillah. better than ntg. manusia kan takkan pernah cukup. smger segala 'perancangan hidup' dipermudahkan dan akan berjalan lancar. amin.

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Try and think about it
If your heart is closed don't lock it
Keep your keys back in your pocket, think this through

Estrella - Stay

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*hanya melodi lagu ini yang sesuai dengan theme perasaan skg ini = tidak terlalu gembira/ tidak sedey/ tidak hyper/ tidak emosik

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wakakakakaka.

sekians.

kerja.kerja.kerja.recession.period.

sekuat mana pon hati manusia ni kadang2 terusik gak dengan certain thgs...
alhamdulillah aku dikelilingi orang2 yang keep on giving me great advices + guidance.
aku mungkin mampu berdiri tp selama mana aku mampu berdiri adalah dipengaruhi oleh orang2 di sekelilingku jugerh.
sbb tuhla penting nya orang2 yang positif dlm kehidupan as we will support each other no matter wut..
tegor jika tersilap aturan langkah...
give support if they r down...
tp jauhkan sekali2 dari si batu api...

tentang kjr
guess wut????
td kan seorang bekas lecturer gue dtg interbiu for position of Art & Design Manager. (dun ask me bout da position name. i have no idea at all from where they got the name. it sounds so ???$%@#)
aku n lisa lately asek la tgok saper yg dtg n masuk bilik interbiu tuh.
bilik interbiu tuh transparent so kitorg leh tgok reaction/body language mereka dari luar.
n kami jugerh jahat set time for how long they stuck inside there.
kunun if less than half an hour mmg takdak harapan la.

serius weyh..kat kampani aku ni senang jerh nk tau dpt or tak kjr tuh.
or mebi sama at any other places...
if 1 hour above korg stuck inside there...kebarangkalian korg dapat kjr tu adalah 90%.
balance adalah based on luck k. dorg sgt pentingkan attitudes+ communication skills and second baru dier tgok experiences + portfolio. sbb ada issue tentang staff yg kurang ajo. huhu. so attitudes come first then baru lah experiences.

expectation bos2 aku mmg sgt tinggi.
so usually orang2 yg dpt kjr kat kampeni aku ni mostly mmg pandai bercakap@ pandai kelentong.
jugerh knr terer speaking la.
aku sumpah tak terer tp biler aku nervous aku leh la merapik ckp gak.
especially in presentation auto bley speaking. akaka.

tp bos aku bagi tips.
sng jerh nk terer in english nih.
keep on practice.
knr rajen membacer english story books.
knr rajen menulis in english.
knr rajen menyanyi lagu2 english. kalo tak phm lyric google for the meanings.
communicate with ur friends/ cliques.
n yang paling penting prepare b4 any presentation/meetings.
bio salah ckp/salah tulis janji u keep on practice.
tp knr rajenla carik reference betol ker salah.
sbb tuhla wajeb membacer buku2/newspaper english sbb leh improve from there.

seriously aku percaya dgn preparation tuh.
aku interbiu byk kali b4 landing my first job smpai aku leh agak dah soklan aper yg dorg nk tanyerh.
mostly akan tanyerh serba sikit pasal bg study, pasal family, study field, bg experience and kenaper interested with the jobs.
ada kadang2 dier nk tgok kita nih seorang yg fun or tak dier akan tanya suka tgok tv series aper/ apa movie last yg ko tgok?
sbb sumtimes korg pk cmnihla..
kalau 10 orang send 10 portfolio yang gempak...
saper yg akan menang agak2?

so from there dorg akan tanyerh soklan2 yg menyimpang sket spy mereka boleh membaca karakter kamu.
so smileeeee n answer every questions confidently.
prepare depan cermin~~
it works for me.

so bila time aku mencari 2nd job aku tuh rezeki agak murah..
senang sekali mendapat tmpt..
gaji pon lebey kurg la..
aku dpt 3 tmpt..
but aku pilih kampeni skrg bukan sbb aku nk ubat kurus free...huhu
tp sbb aku nak rasa guna Mac.
hahaha. nk harapkan kemampuan sindrik membeli mac rasanyerh lambat lagih kot.
byk lagi priority lain.

sbb dulu2 aku pernah skali g interbiu kat kampeni yg aku skerkkkk sgt. kampeni publishing. tp aku fail biler smpai part dorg test design skill pakai mac.

haih ntahla.
skg recession.
job satisfaction dah ada..tp kenaikan gaji kurang akibat tempias recession ni.
harap2 bonus nti tak tersasar dari target.

tp aku tamo berharap dgn kenaikan gaji nih.
sudah tentu aku mempunyai Plan A, B & C.
skg smerk nyerh masih diperingkat perancangan.
harap semuanya berjalan lancar nti.

aku rasa kebarangkalian en. lecturer dpt kjr kat kampeni aku cm tinggggi jerh sbb dier stuck in there more than 1 hour. agagagaga.
plus kampeni aku 80% pompuan 20% lelaki.
so kemungkinan peluang lelaki dpt job tuh sgt tinggi.
i can't imagine la work under him.
isk.

wa byk hepi dpt angpau. dpt save duit arinih.
plus si halim banjer mkn as gaji dier byk kan bulan nih. ekeke.

home

aku skerk gilerh website baru yg aku tgh dok buat skg nih.
skg even tho tgh develop inner pages nyerh..
tp main page knr tune balik la tukar gambar.
aku taktau la aper lagihla boss besar tak puas ati.
padahal arituh time tunjuk kat the team..aku dapat overall markah 7,8,8,8.5.
ala2 project runaway tuh.
cmtuhla sistem opis aku nyerh kjr.
tp paperhal bos besar gak decide wuts best for da product/brand/company.
guru besar maa.:p

so aku da tukar main page baru yg lebih kinky.
yg tahap parents aku tgok ni sure dier akan pk 'anak aku ni kjr kat kampeni lucah maner nih'.
huhuhu.
i cant show u guys yet.
just not yet kie.
so bear wif me.
aku skerk sgt website kali nih sbb website nih aku pakai css.
aku seboleh2 nk avoid flash kali nih.
kalo nk buat intro flash pon kalau leh nk pakai xml flash slideshow sajerh.
contoh: 1 & 2.
tp stkat ni aku tak jumper lagi yg free yg bley aku curik2.
wani, kalo ko ada solution utk ini, tell me wokeh.

pueh ati gakla even tho byk lagi kelemahan dan byk bender lagi yg patot aku learn n explore lagih.
btol la orang ckp kalau main kita buat bender tuh..makin kta akan faham n terer.
aku tak sabar2 nk develop website sindrik.
thx la pada smerk pressure d opis.
samada bender2 tuh compliments/ negative feedbacks...
bender2 tuh yg lebih membuatkan semangat aku lebih berkobar2 utk buat business sindrik kelak.

bender paling penting dalam website adalah site map.
some may call it with other things.
n button yg wajeb ada dalam setiap website adalah home/index.
n bagi aku website yg takder perkataan home adalah website yang tak tahu hala tuju mereka sendiri.

sama jugerh cm life.
kdg2 kita tersesat...n seperti hilang arah tujuan dlm hidup.
so how?

back to home.
back to basic.
back to objectif kenapa anda bekerja di ctu.
back to objectif kenapa anda tinggal dctu.
back to objectif kenapa anda pilih dia.

heh.
as simple as dat.
once ko pegang bender tuh...
ko takkan sesat ke mana2 pn ko g.
ada paham?

you must study harder.:p

messenger

korg. opis gue da remove segala msn/ym messenger.
berkuatkuasa monday (01 dec)
sesaper yg still msg gue tuh mintak maapla yerh kalao gue tak reply.
nti next week biler opis da reda sket dgn issue2 messenger ni aku onla meebo.
haha. actually halim tak totally removekan dari aku nyerh mac (aku kan member die. privilege la kan.) tp nyerh da tentu la seat aku tuh ngadap bilik meeting/ngadap tmpat laluan ramai/ ngadap pantry/ngadap pintu masuk utama. jdnyerh malasla karang terkantoi kaver dpn big boss kan.
jd tunggula seminggu dua...
huhu.
umh plak aku tak install ym coz pc umh bodoe ni kalau aku install ym chat pastuh dier hang2 tertutup sindrik.. so lebey afdhal takya install tros.
tuh takya tanyerhla baper kali aku format pc dlm setaun.
sigh~
so korg phm naper aku wajeb tunggu bonus utk beli brg2 pc/laptop?
aku cuber tidak mahu menggunakan kad kredit.
belom lagi masanyerh.
huhu. as aku cuba mengamalkan cara berbelanja sehat selagi boleh n selagi mampu.
sabar tuh kan separuh iman. kan kan kan. (cuba menyedapkan ati sindrik)

rainbow week

minggu yg superb bz.
bz d opis jugerh bz selepas pulang kjr.
n tiap2 malam aku balek umh kol 10 pm>
n sisa2 masa sempatla gak tulis blog n jd stalker kt blog org gak.

so here r some pics of the event.
we have our annual dinner at saujana hotel, subang.
the event was not bad, cuma game la rasa mcm sket nyerh.
tak sempat rasa panas.
n adiah pon biasa2 jerh tak seperti tahun lepas di mana aku menang hset kan kan. hehe.
katanyerh dorg takder sponsor taun ni.
jd aku dpt tempat cd lembu?
muahaha. okla dari takder paper.
tak smpt panas men game...n da abes.
but food was really great.

so enjoy some piccas.
haha. aku tak amek gamba as aku skerk menyelit masuk kat kamera org.
so tunggula nti aku upload byk lagi pics k.

tema event = rainbow colors.
so knr pakai baju2 cukup 7 kaler rainbow. aku hepila jumper gak gelang kalerful. tak skerkla pakai baju kalerful coz aku tau nti aku tak pakainyerh.
naper tema cmnih coz kununnyerh everyone has their true colors inside. gituhla.
cmtuh aku nih manjang ngn kaler pink-purple. aperkah maksudnyerh. ntila aku kaji.

total aku spend for accessories + clutch yg tak jd guner last minute is = RM50>
ok la tuh. saving byk dah as baju aku beli pakai voucher adiah besday isetan taun lepas 100 hinggit yg masih lom guner from kak mai. Thx kak mai. huhu.

dari kanan ke kiri: winner of the best dresses:
Top winner - kanan sekali (creative consultant gue)
Second winner - my marketing boss (centre)
Third winner - Lisa (Graphic designer) (kiri without the wig)
n dier hanya spend RM 31 for all the dress + accesories. terer sungguh dier berbelanja. ala lagi less pakai pakai kat badan, lagi murah la. tak gituh? :p

hepi dapat lembu n burger tempat letak cd as our group menang dpt no 2. okla tuh. men tipu dlm game pon dpt no.2.:p

n for hadiah christmas, aku dapat tea set? aper ntah aku nk buat ngn bender alah tuh. haih.
aku minum coffee la. tak minum tea2 nih. :p

aperpon smpai umh, lif rosak.
Guess wut?
aku menapak naik TANGGA 20 TINGKAT.
diulangi NAIK TANGGA 20 TINGKAT.

Sekarang rasa nk pengsan.
n nk tido bangun kol 10.
alifa siler jgn kejut sebelum kol 10.
plus aku takleh solat.
ngeh2.