hati

"for me wuts most important thg for relationship is the process..not how it will ends up"

ayat2 dari seorg sahabat sewaktu lunch sungguh memberi kesan as for dis while i only thinking of marriage will solve all the unsolved issue. but then this sentence just open up my mind. i was trying to console her with my lil-not so-effective advice. bf dier ada leukimia. see. some ppl have more complicated issue.

many been asking wuts the tips of my 4 years in a relationship with him.
herms i told them there's no secret at all..
we used to fight like u guys..argue alot..
and before this i cry alot..alot means alot..
i even cry at phone called my parents ask for consultation...
called my sister to pick me up and bawak g jalan2 dat time when i was at mmu...
also nangis2 at my friends...

then after a while, i become numb...
i try other ways to calm myself...
i take alot of self-potrait pics n edit it... and cry in front of my pc...
now i didnt cry as much as b4..
i only cry before i sleep..n wake up to work with my bad eyes...so end up having my-so-called-smoky-eyes-make-up to the office.
i sing alots. loudly in my room. repeat it for more over than 10x for the same jiwang song.
it works. but the pain still there.
only u and him can heal the pain rite. heh.
and by luck..he will say sorry and thgs will b ok again..

but 1 thg for sure...
no matter how much i cry...
no matter how painful it is...
no matter how my head sumtimes b naughty try to make some "kalau"..
my heart only ask for him.

sumhow it's still feel like a dream..
it started with having a crush at sumone and knowing that he has the same feeling at u?
wut will b more great than that?

knowing him more make this relationship become stronger n add another year for each year.
n when it get started we both dunno it.
that's y we never celebrate any anniversay coz we dunno when it was started.
we only celebrate birthdays.

my expectation tru this relationship...
herms..hope i will having a happy ending...

for this kind of heart-ache..
i will try to amend it.
i said i will...

am i typing too much here..
did anyone get bored with this sincere kind jiwang writings?
tomorrow is another journey.
lets have a lil hope for some pure love.
but wut if another heart stop having a hope?