work hectic

pc ku totally dead..
tp ntah cmne td cm leh format tp aku taula sure cm smthg wrong as internet takle.
aku dahla tgh smgt nk memblogging nih..
so skg pinjam laktop yana.

well td baru pas abes crit..ahaks it other word baru pas present kat bos..
ala stiap minggu aku akan ada session present kat 3 bos ala2 american idol tuh..
vc = not really simon not really randy. sumtimes she's paula
cheah = he's simon
celine = komen dari dier biasanyerh aku ignore jerh.:p
halim = aku anggap ala2 afdlin la..sbb dier ada experience in those thgy..so his ideas walaupon membencikan a bit tp ok la aku terpaksa trimer dgn hati yg rela..
Mr Big T = paula? ahaks.
cumer session kali ni agak tak best sket..
aku diberi masa 5 hari sahaja utk merevamp website yg sedia ada b4 showing the progress...
n 3 hari terbuang begitu sahjer as terpaksa meng ammend previous website..
so tinggal 2 hari yg 1 ari tuh habes buat animation skin yg giler gabeng gakla nk satisfy kan hati smekr org...
so total utk revamp website = 1 ari

as web designer..there r so many elements u have to take care of.

aku tak tau la shud i memberontak or not..
bcoz sumtimes aku rasa i can take it..i can take it..
but part of me is so stress starving for more times to complete those thgs..
i always noe i could do better n bettttttter...
those expectations from eveyone and towards me as i said b4 is killing me softly..
but the satisfaction of doing it in the right way and to accomplish it like everybody wants is the most satisfaction part..
so i am gonna b patient..
am gonna work harder..
i wont gonna waste dis sweet 23 years old just giving up like dat..

yeah..sumtimes it's radiculous ok...
i have dis nightmare in my sleep like im in da meeting and talking to the bosses..
to be exact = i talk in my sleep...well..speaking in english..
haha..n ozai menjadi saksi di atas kejadian2 yg tidak diingini ituh..ampes..
so u now how stressfull i am everyday..
yet i still enjoying those stressfulness..
alif akan jd mangsa almost every night as i will bebel panjang2 on da phone..
talking bout craps...
so all my stress goes to him..pity u..:p

tp aku takderla hepi membuat kjr2 pening2 otak ni kalau hasil tak seberapa kan kan..
so along the way..hampir 4 kali dah aku dpt performance increament...incl baru2 ni nyerh. ni la briter gembira arituh tuh. tp next month la baru berkuatkuasa.:)
1) maybe bcoz of masa aku masuk aku tak ckup experience so gaji aku slowly naik based on my performance..
2) maybe they have their own salary standard for each level..
3) mungkin takmo kasik aku lari..as saperla yg kebal menahan kritikan bosses2 yg agak pedas hampir setiap minggu kan..
so skg gajiku da samer ngn budak2 ofis lama ku nyerh gaji.
means gaji dorg utk 2 taun stgh kt ctu = gaji aku yg baru staun kt cni.
alhamdulillah..
tp baru nk menuai padi minyak plak da naik.:(

n aku teringat jet (bekas deskmate ku dulu) yg bersungguh2 buat web kt ofis lama ku..
aku tanyerh dier naper rajen sgt..
naper ko tak pernah marah walaupon indra kdg2 cm tak really appreciate wut u r doing..
n he simply said...kiter knr ikhlas dlm setiap apa yg kiter lakukan..
barulah kiter hepi dgn life kita...n get those satisfaction..
Tuhan akan reward diri kita slowly tanpa kita sedar..
maybe or maybe not by those increaments..
maybe by other thgs..
we dunno..
but yg pntg knr 'ikhlas' n give ur really best on those thgs dat u did..
after dat..aku tros cm bangun dari mimpi fresh grad..n tanpa membuang masa..
aku try kutip sebaik mungkin ilmu dari those seniors and get some advise from parents as well as family members anytime when mood graf ku jatuh bawah 0 tiber2..

aku tak mungkin leh jd kebal mcm skrg..bak kata cheah "i think for other gals may cried after this critics session..but u r not..u r really open n tough"
yeah he dunno how i cried inside but of course i have to be tough in front of them rite..
as the only thgs that remain in dis life is 'changes'.
so we must adapt to it...no matter how we hate it..
we must be tough n continue improve ourselves and keep up to date wif new thgs/stuffs/trends/skills/knowledges.

As just now i watched 712- life of Johnny depp. Of course Hollywood stars are bad example to be ur idol. they have bad exposure on drugs, bad social lifestyle n so on. But there r some good elements in them too rite. Like Johnny Depp, he only play roles in characters that he believe it's unique and have good quality to be remembered for long term. He wants people to really see his talent than just his good looking face. His passion towards his acting and to be choosy in certain characters really make him stand out as one of most talented actor and likeable by everyone. Nah, who can forgot 'Edward Scissorhands' and 'Pirate of The Caribbean'. We can watched those movies for 10 times and still can be amazed by those funny and unique characters played by him.

So tomolo my marketing meeting again. All the designers inc jen will eat nasi lemak 4 breakfast b4 cramping our heads wif 1 day deadful stressful meeting.

p/s: as the only thgs that remain in dis life is 'changes'.
= minyak naik. saper teraser?