lumps...

when i write in dis blog...means sumtg just happen to my life....well...just get back from bp...my hometown...have a great time spending times wif my family..with my niece n nephew...nasya n zarif...besides dat..got a bad news...i have to go for a small operation on 8th october as there are 4 lumps at my both breasts...all my family worried bout it..im worried too...but i cant cry until alif say sumthg dats for him it is a concern towards me...ask me to really to take care wif wut i eating n all..i dunno y but sumhow i am so geram as he said i mcm tak kesah with my health all dis time...yes i admit i ate maggie...sumtimes a few times for da week...u noe live single...wut u aspect...sumtimes hari kjr mmg malas nk kua...bler kua badan da pnt..n minyak pon jalan....so sumtimes either i eat roti wif telor...or meggie goreng wif telur or just dun eat at all for da nite....he stay at home...of course he get proper foods served by his mother...n da cost of cooking costs alot...n da effort to cook sumtimes make me tired...herms..dun want to say much bout it...sum ppl wont just get it...anyway..i noe after dis ill try to take care of myself..i will survive...will eat proper foods...aperpon i believe dis is dugaan tuhan...no matter wut happen ill b strong..i just hope he will advice me wif proper way or else i will freak out again..n hurting him..which means hurting me too...ramadhan is coming...gonna pray alot on dis month..hope everythg will b fine...:(